tony omalley – serious

Chapter 17:

“The Ex-Wife.”

 *God, where am I supposed to escape from you?

She has already been here. I wrote about why we broke up. I gave myself entirely to my family. I never cheated. Not once. In our time, that is unnatural. I always hurried home. I was with the children. But passion fades, and love follows it. That’s how the world works.

Once, back in Ukraine, we were a happy and cheerful couple. She helped me with my work and gave herself to me endlessly. I achieved a lot in business thanks to her. We split money exactly fifty–fifty. There was a debt with interest, and I paid it off—very difficult. She spent her share on the family. By the way, I believe that is absolutely normal. But major expenses—serious purchases or rent—were always on me, as is customary in Ukrainian families.

Today she called my 79-year-old mother and suggested that she pick up the children from kindergarten every other day. On the remaining days, the children should walk home by themselves—which is even more unrealistic than my mother traveling from the other side of the city at her age, then sitting at home with Maria (my little daughter) for 20 minutes until my ex returns from her courses. David (my son) is 9.5 years old. He cannot go pick up his sister from kindergarten and walk her home. Both options are completely illogical.

She has been in deep depression for three years now. I already wrote about this. But here I want to end all conversations about her, because I no longer want to think about or remember her.

Today we had an argument over this inadequate decision. In the conversation, she said that she lost in life by being with me—that she regrets meeting me, that she suffered with me.

For 12 years she didn’t work anywhere, always stayed at home, and worked on a completely flexible schedule as my assistant. She did important things: registered domains, did a bit of programming, wrote texts for websites, and cooked. There was always money for food and all kinds of purchases. It wasn’t easy, but we lived happily, and she said that more than once.

But now, in Germany, she deeply regrets everything and hates me.

My ex-wife ended up here only thanks to me and my parents. We immigrated through the Jewish line, and she is not Jewish. For five years she has been receiving social benefits, living in our apartment with the children. She kicked me out of the house with a fabricated statement, in which she wrote that I am an alcoholic and called her a “bitch.” She did not write that at that time she had not slept with me for six months and refused to fulfill any of my requests.

To be fair, our marriage was not killed only by radical feminism. It was killed by the absence of passion, by love that had long passed, and by the local virus.

Once, already here in Germany, I approached her in the kitchen and tried to show affection. She raised her hands, as if in prayer, and said words I will never forget:
“God, where am I supposed to escape from you?”

We weren’t even fighting then. We were still a family.

Today is December 9, 2020.
The year that brought the world an unexplained and still undefeated disease is coming to an end. And it brought me lost love. My children have grown up, and I have grown one year older. I have no job. Nothing is working out with Vanessa and the hotel owner. Yesterday, I also failed to meet my friends Mirela and Alexa—and today they flew to Romania. Sayud and I are alone again.

Life goes on. Soon a vaccine against COVID-19 will enter the market, but we do not know whether it will help us.

In the next part of the book, I will introduce you to Beyoncé. A new page of my life will begin. The destruction of European civilization continues. War is approaching.

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